Saturday, August 2, 2008

A story from Eric.

Eric said,
We did make a lot of decision in our life, but do you feel regret for sometime? Sometime there is no second choice or chance for something in our life.I did a DAMN SHIT decision in my life with my girl. The girl i love her for more than 7 years. i just knew she also love with me. But, the feeling gone as time passing by, just feel like a girl which i will protect & care for my whole life.So, we just remain best friend.She feel sad. Finally she leave because i asked her to leave & get her own Mr. Right. i cannot see any future between us. But, when she told me one day that she will get married soon,my heart feel loss loss & loss.DAMN...WHY? I regret i didn't stop her.I regret i didn't give second chance for myself & her.But, deep in my heart,i know i can't be fall in love with others girl anymore after her.This is because my heart stick with her.Cannot throw it cannot forget.I swear i will not make any regret decision in my life.I will attend her wedding dinner by next week.Dream broken,heart broken.Regret for my damn shit decision and thinking!!!



有多久没见你
以为你在那里
原来就住在我的心底
陪伴着我的呼吸
有多远的距离
以为闻不到你的气息
谁知道你背影这么长
回头就看到你
过去让它过去
来不及
从头喜欢你
白云缠绕着蓝天
如果
不能够永远都在一起
也至少给我们
怀念的勇气
拥抱的权利
好让你明白
心动的痕迹
过去让它过去
来不及
从头喜欢你
白云缠绕着蓝天
如果
不能够永远都在一起
也至少给我们
怀念的勇气
拥抱的权利
好让你明白
心动的痕迹
总是想再见你
还试着打探你的消息
原来
你就住在我的身体
守护我的回忆

17 comments:

Eric said...

eugene,
Thank you for your posting of my story!The song suit for my feeling now. As don't know start from when, i start to miss her.
a) Her smiling: when she smiling and telling me about her story, her stuff, and funny stuff.
b) Her cute: she is pretty cute, especially when she smile and doing something that i cannot imagine. She will not get angry but when i tease her, her responce is pretty cute.
c) Her funny: Because she is cute therefore her responce is very funny. I love to bully her and tease her because i love to make her get angry and make her smile.
d) Her innocent: i never see a girl canbe innocent like her, she is always blur and funny for everything she do. You will feel like you wish to protect her.
e) Her softness: She is very soft, make me feel comfortable to talk with her. She is a kind girl.

Everything from her is good and nice. i know i am lucky to have her in my life. I feel regret why i avoid the problem and treat it as a troublesome for me. Now i understand all about her complaint and unhappy, all because of me! I make her unhappy, what can i do for her now? Maybe just wish her happy. I swear i will not leave her anymore!
Yah, i missing her a lot. Missing all about her. Missing her care sms, missing her care msg, missing her care words to me. Every time i feel stressful with my work, i will think of her smiling, funny, and cute. Why i make her unhappy and painful when she love me, i am the worse guy. I didn't try to understand her. She should blame on me, but she did not. We broke, but she still care for me, listen from me and support me. WHY??????
Is kindness of missing feeling, i do not know how to say, may be eugene when you experience this, then only can feel this feeling. I know i cannot throw or delete away all about her memory.
I pretty wish she can be happy. Sorry, i always avoid to reply you these words: "I LOVE YOU! " But this word is keeping in my bottom of my heart long time ago. I know it is belong to you now til forever! Never belong to other!Sorry for b'lated reply!

Eric said...
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Eric said...

Thank you for your selected song. I will make it as my caller ringtone. I read a meaningful blog from my friend, just to share with you and your fiends:
最远的你是我最近的爱
我曾用心爱着你,
夜已沉默, 不肯回头,
爱都错过, 别笑我懦弱...相见恨晚?????
我以為我不愛你, 我以為我們的不是愛,
你的爱总在不远地方等着我, 爱很简单,只因有你, 但你已不在了.
日不落...

Eugene Tan said...

u're welcome,
"过去让它过去
来不及
从头喜欢你."
please looking forward.
有一件事是你永远都能拥有的,那就是"回忆"。
没有人能将它从你身边夺走,那将会是你们两人共同拥有的"回忆"。
祝,幸福。

Eric said...
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Eric said...

有一句心底话,
我一直没说,
其实当初我真的没好好珍惜你,
你说的对,我把你的心丢到太平洋了!
对不起,
我很后悔我没把她留下,
只因我不能承若,
我没勇气再爱你,
也可能我怕伤害你,
对不起,
我知道我不能再为你做什么了,
因为现在你的心已给了你的未婚夫,
你说他像我,
你说他爱你,
你说他能给你幸福,
你说他能给你承若,
你说他能谅解你,
你说他能把护你,
“他”,每一句的“他”都深深刻在我的心,
痛,心痛的感觉原来可以那么痛!
可是却不比她痛,
当初的她,一定比我更痛!
可是我却没好好保护她,
让她受伤了,
千言万语说不完,
对不起,我真的好爱你!
我爱你!但愿我能把你留下来,
我能吗?你说你还是一样爱我,但却要求我祝福你快乐!
你也希望我能幸福快乐,
可是我的幸福,
在哪里?你的幸福?我的幸福?
两年前,我们还说我们的幸福,
两年后,我的幸福,你的幸福!
我和你,已经各自分开了?
我好想你,好想好想和你在一起!
最后祝你永远幸福快乐至到永远!
EUGENE,
谢谢你!虽然她不可能会看到你的BLOG,
可是感觉已经把我的心底话和她分享了!
万分的感谢你!
不要像我那么傻,把自己的幸福丢到太平洋!有时错过就不能再回头!
回头已经太迟了!要珍惜眼前人,别让幸福过了!也并祝你能和你爱和关心的人永远幸福快乐!

天下有情人永远快乐!

对,EUGENE,
我和她共同拥有的回忆永远在我的心中!
她快乐,我就快乐!
4/8/2008
珍惜眼前人!

Eric said...
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Eric said...

你的婚纱照很美,
可是新郎不是我,
真的,你真的很美!

4/8/2008
Sorry for b'lated reply and confirm:
"I LOVE YOU".

Eric said...

Congratulation for your wedding!
Sorry i wish to attend your wedding, but i do not know how to face with you. I wish you canbe happy but my heart feel painful. I blame on myself why now only realize about the love feeling!!!!!Because you are always with me? So i cannot feel your leave? But now you are leaving me now til forever. I missing you, do not know start from when i start to miss you.

Sorry, please take care and wish you happy!
Again, Congratulation for your wedding!
Although i couldn't attend your wedding, but my wish stick with you now til forever!

Today is the last day,
i know today you are the most beautiful girl in this world.
You are the most pretty girl in my heart!!!!!!
Congratulation!
i swear i will not let you worry me,
i swear i will not let you feel even one second of sad anymore from now til forever.
我承若...
All the best to you and best wishes to you and ........him.4/8/2008

Eric said...
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Eric said...

送上一首她超爱的歌
Forever Love
并祝福她永远幸福快乐!
她的笑容是最甜美的,永远都不会忘记你对我的笑!
你一定在骂我为什么没来吧?
对不起,礼物会邮寄给你!
也是你超爱的草莓心项链!
天下有情人也要珍惜,别让幸福溜走了!

珍惜眼前人!

Eric said...

Thank You Eugene!

Eric said...

Lastly 05-08-08, "last day mc"
今天她找我,她担心我发生什么事。昨天我没有去和她拍照,她打了一整天电话给我。
她的关心令我回想起以前。以前的我竟然都没体会到这个感觉,好像理所当然的她会关心在乎我,时常气她也没在乎她对我的关心。因为我的理所当然,所以渐渐地我也就没当一回事了,原来幸福和关心不是必然的,我太自以为是的把她伤害了让她走了,还分了她的心给她的未婚夫。不过我不会再让她受伤让她哭,从这一时这一刻她会永远幸福快乐!
祝福你和他永远快乐!我会永远守护在你身旁为你挡风雨,不再让你受伤流泪!
Gonna stop from now on til,
Gonna do well for my own self,
i ady promise her i will not let her worry me,
This is what i can do for her,
That's all for my story!
Tomorrow gonna get back to my job and ended my mc.
Million Thank You with Eugene!
Best wishes to you all!

springmemories said...

Eric...
打起精神吧,加油咯!!!
祝你明天拥有全新的一天。。。

Ganbattee Lo....:P

Unknown said...

Eric:
Touching with you and your gurl. i tot i am de only man tat join into a long journey of love in this world. you are de second man, cool man nice to meet you man. i am more lucky than you man because i knock my head and hit de answer early!!!!!i just get back into de relationship with my gurl last month. Perhaps i know tat not every man can knock his head and hit the answer, however, i agree for cool eric tat to rethink it. Anyhow, don push your feeling oso because possible to get -ve answer for it if pushing. i broke with my gurl once, then we get back again after few months. Complex way make us broke, but simple way make us together. Man don like troublesome and tight as do i, cool. Cool man love single life, yah cool. Yes cool man, there is true to get back the first feeling tat is simple with her. My gurl is my first gurl to love, however, we did surrounding other bees and flowers, anyhow she still took my space and i still took her space. She is important for me. I care for her, she care for me. Tis answer aldy egh for me. (ofcoz we broke before is because i tot too much, but acty there is too much to think much)Follow de simple way definately.
Cool Eric, you are the 2nd man tat cool like me, keep it yah!GL man!

Eugene Tan said...

Eric, you are not alone. =).
明天会更好。

Unknown said...

Eric.明天会更好.